Evotional.com - Mark Batterson

Five days into this forty days of prayer and fasting I'm finding that I'm living out of the overflow of what God is doing in my heart. In past, there were times that I had to "get myself to worship." When I came into the worship gathering this morning I "couldn't help but worship." I couldn't lift my hands high enough or sing loud enough. There is a sensitivity that is almost identical to being in a very emotional state where anything can set you off--but in a good way. I'm in a highly spiritual state where my spiritual nerve endings respond to the slightest impulse. I think the biblical word, from the KJV, is "quickening." I'm just more responsive to the Spirit of God. I have quicker reflexes.
The message this morning was exactly where I'm at: God is more concerned with who I am becoming than what I am doing. I've always felt like NCC won't outgrow me as the undershepherd. It is John Maxwell's "law of the lid." One of things I sometimes say to staff and leaders is this: you are more important than your ministry. I need to make sure that I'm growing personally and church growth will take care of itself.
The greatest mission field isn't half-way around the world. The greatest mission field is me! A theme that seems to be recurring in this forty days is that God is more concerned about what He can do "in me" than "through me." I'm excited about what God is going to do through me. But I'm even more excited about who I'm becoming in the process! Sometimes we confuse the ends and the means. Oswald Chambers said that what we consider the process God considers the goal.